Weight Loss and Personal Stuff

My weight loss has slowed down some lately. It's discouraging, but I won't give up. At least I'm still going in the right direction. It's hard not to expect 'Biggest Loser'-type results. I've averaged dropping about 5 lbs a week for quite awhile now. I knew it was bound to slow down at some point. But 2 lbs a week is still good. I'll take it.

I'm going to bare a part of myself here (did I tell you I'm shy? Lol) and share some personal things about me and my progress. Because to be truly honest for a moment (aren't I always?), this is a very sensitive subject for me. No one reading this has any idea how hard it is for me to post this...

I never had an overweight problem before. In fact, I was ragged as a teenager for being "too skinny". I don't know how it happened, but somewhere over the years, I became the fat girl (at least, in my mind I was). I think it was more psychological than anything though. It seems that over the years, the more depression carried me down emotionally, the more my weight gradually crept up.

You didn't know that I suffer from depression, did you? My light-hearted, funny-side-up attitude hides it. Even now, my duality amazes me. On one side, I'm this smiling, friendly, sweet girl whose kindness and humor inspires people. My favorite quality about myself is that I can find beauty, fun, and laughter in the simplest things.

On the other side, I'm skittish, nervous, depressive, easily angered, and my fear of being hurt makes me deathly afraid to let others get too close to me. This darker side of myself scares me. It kicks in without warning when I least expect it.

But I didn't start writing this to give you the creeps. "Vickie, did you take your medicine today?" Lmao! Now on to the fun part: the before and after pictures. Well, so far, anyway...

This is my progress so far from Sparkpeople.com.

This is me exactly one year ago. I weighed 184 lbs. Not only was 2009 the absolute worst year of my entire life, it was also my heaviest. It's only looking back that I can see just how big I had gotten...

Dude, did I just do that? Did I just post that ugly old picture? *sigh* Yes I did.

This is me 2 weeks ago at 158 lbs. I've lost 2 more lbs than that since then, but I don't feel like taking any pictures today.
I won't have a butt left before long LOL.

I still have a very long way to go though. I've been told by some that my long-term goal is too small for my frame, but I don't care. If I'm gonna aim, I may as well aim high. I'm trying to bring heroin chic back in style! Ha Ha!

Ok so that's enough super personal sharing for me today. My mouse pointer is hovering over the 'delete' button because I'm having second thoughts about posting this...

Deep breath... don't chicken out...

*squeezes eyes shut*

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